Small Town Fashionista: Season of Change

Hi Guys!

Holy moly it has sure been a while since I have blogged. It is one of the most frustrating things for me because I always had so many things I wanted to share with you, but could never find the time to just sit down and get it done! So thanks for still following me after my long hibernation season! LOL

I like to be open and honest about all things with my followers.

1. I don't think it is cool to lie on social media and try to make my life seem like something it is not.

2. If my stories, fashion finds, or anything I post can help someone, I want it to.

3. You all take the time to follow along so the least I can do is be honest.

So here are my life updates and things I really wanted to share with you all. I know that I am a fashion blogger, but I am also lifestyle. I love to be able to share these things too!

I have officially moved back to my teeny tiny hometown! Let me tell you this move and the anticipation for it has been such a journey. I just felt so anxious and so overwhelmed with all the unknowns ahead and unanswered questions.

My lease was ending, and with the wedding coming up, I was not going to sign another year lease. This meant that I had to leave my big-shot corporate job, and the reactions I got did not exactly help my anxiousness.

"You are leaving this job to live on a farm?!"

"Are you just going to milk cows now?!"

"What are you even going to do once you leave?!"

So before I even go any further I just need to point out that anyone who knows me the slightest bit knows I will be nowhere close to milking any sort of cows! Hahahahahaha! #sorryPaul

In my head it was nonstop overthinking, wondering should I figure out how to work my job longer, would I be a failure if I went home without another job lined up, so many different things running through my head. It is honestly scary how much your mind can mess with you. I was convinced I was not going to know how to act or what to even do without this job I have put so much energy into.

Let me just tell you that little voice in your head is wrong.

Since I have moved home, I have never in my life felt better. I have never been more relaxed, because my last job was such a high-stress level position I did not have time to relax.

I have never laughed more or had more fun. My fiance is the most amazing man, and has pretty much had me laughing so hard everyday my stomach hurts. (Good ab workout for the wedding though hahaha)

I have never felt more loved or more supported. With all the encouraging words and love I have been shown from friends and family.

That is when it finally hit me. I made a really hard decision in life, but I made it for me! I chose to put myself and my happiness first. I always put others and their feelings before my own, which I am sure so many of you all do as well. This one big decision to move home and put my happiness before any job or anything else will forever change my life.

This morning I woke up, and I had the absolute biggest smile on my face. I stepped out into the hallway of my future home and I just couldn't believe how lucky I was, right there in that moment. The natural sun was shining into the hallway that so much time and effort was put into to make beautiful. There was a man right outside working in the shop that loves me more than most people are loved in a lifetime (he is so amazing it's unreal). I just stood there in awe of how perfect and wonderful my life was and is about to be.

Here are some before and after photos of our little farmhouse so far!